I cannot believe how much you all love this blog, and how kind you’ve all been. Really, I am overwhelmed.
So here’s my situation, since you all deserve to know why I’m cryptically trying to sell my camera stuff.
You probably all know that last year I lost my job at a NPO I worked for when this stupid moron ugly co-worker, her even stupider and uglier husband and a pack of their intellectually challenged friends decided to stage a hostile takeover of the BoD through false means (me = still bitter). The new, fake, BoD terminated our positions, shut down the NPO and then a battle in court between them and the old, genuine BoD ensued that has tied them up in court since forever.
Like any jobless person, I applied for Unemployment Benefits, full expecting to find another job right away – I always have. It’s rare I don’t get a job I apply for, historically speaking. But their timing could not have been worse because, umm, there are no jobs. The economy sucks goats. I have been unable to find gainful employment since. Hell, I can’t even find crappy employment.
This month, my Unemployment Benefits ran out. So I have no job, no money, and no safety net, because I was not exactly earning a fortune at my last job (the curse of doing Good Works for a living). I am dead serious about not being able to pay the rent – it’s no euphemism, or exaggeration. I have sold everything I have to sell, including my beloved bicycles, just to get by these last few months. My friends have been just stellar, paying for my agility classes and trial entry fees, donating dog food to my hungry canines … but I cannot continue to let people fund my life!
That’s in part why I am so reluctant to put a tip jar on the blog. People have been so very generous already, I feel downright naughty accepting more help. I’ll beg shamelessly for rescue, but it’s awfully hard for me to ask for help for me.
I also don’t want to make any of YOU pay for *my* blog! I do this because I love it – it’s so much fun to chronicle the many (mis)adventures of my dogs and the fact that you all get to enjoy it with me is just a bonus for me. Your comments often make me laugh harder than you probably do at the blog itself. You give me back as much I give you. That’s what makes this whole blog thing work, imo.
Lastly, I don’t want anyone to think I’m plugging for money. There are so many disingenuous people in this world with a sob story – I wasn’t trying to elicit sympathy from anyone by trying to sell my camera gear. I just want to pay the bills, and the camera et al is all I have left, really.
But I won’t sell it, not right now – not because I never intended to in the first place, but rather because several people have offered to buy the whole shebang and rent it back to me again until I’ve paid it off again. I think losing my cameras would be like losing an arm, so I can’t pass an offer like that up if I can avoid it (because without my arm, how would I beat Wootie for being so BAD?). So if you’ve emailed me about what I’ve got to sell and not received an answer, that’s why – not because it was a sympathy scam.
I would love for this blog to make money, I really would. But because I started this blog for my own selfish enjoyment, I would – and still don’t – have any idea how to go about making that happen. I am completely open to suggestions. I am no entrepreneur. I’m just a girl with a camera and too many dogs for any sane person. But I definitely don’t want it to make money at the expense of any of YOU. I won’t charge for subscriptions … my dogs are whackos for free, you should get to appreciate their whacko-ness for free too!
The many many emails, atop the many many comments here, that I have received are trying to assure me that my ‘art’ such as it were, is worth paying for. I really struggle with this, friends, but my protests get drowned out by your arguments. And I’m tired of Pia calling me an asshole! ;-)
So I acquiesce, and I’ll put the tip jar here on the site. I’d never even heard of such a thing until you all collectively bellowed it at me.
If you want to donate, I love you and I’m deeply humbled. If you don’t, I love you for reading the blog. And you have NO idea how much Tweed loves an audience.
ETA – I don’t know what I am doing wrong with the donate button? I just followed the paypal instructions. As you may have figured out, I’m quite techno-stupid. What’s the secret here?
Okay wait – more Edit … I think this will work. The only paypal account I have is the one associated with the rescue, so if this works, maybe just add a note that it’s not a rescue donation so the funds don’t get mixed up? ARGH! It’s already complicated ;-)
If this helps – just use the address firstname.lastname@example.org It’s all connected to the same account, I think, but that address differentiates it from the rescue one…right?
In return I promise to buckle down and try to find a way to make what I love to do pay for my simple little life. A friend and fan is hooking me up with someone who apparently knows how to make websites make money. Another friend has suggested I check out a government run self employment program for sad sacks like me with an idea but no idea how to execute it. I will also look into selling prints or other items made with my camera – if anyone is familiar with setting up webstores or similar, and wants to help me get that off the ground, I’m all ears (kind of like Dexter). And of course, if any of you fine folks in the Lower Mainland can hook me up with an actual job job, I’m all about the networking and will take any help I can get.
I don’t know what else to say, except that I promise to try and repay you all for your kindness by being funny and taking funny photos. A little birdie tells me I’m not too bad at it, after all.
But wouldn’t it be totally creepy if, like, it did?